Apologies

Sometimes I don't always think about how my actions or words effect another. Also, I often don't know which effect(affect) to use in a sentence.

I tend to hurt those closest to me. With my last two blog entries, I wasn't thinking of my girlfriend Jen. She is very important to me and has been for the last few years.

With the blog entry about my exfiance, I didn't mean to use such extreme language when I talked about what she meant to me. I can express my congratulations to her without reflecting on my past. I am sorry about that.

As for the other entry, I talk about the idea of "home" with my new community. And its true. What I sometimes fail to mention is that Jen has meant that to me as well. I can be out in the world, doing different things, failing or succeeding, in pain or happiness, and I can always come back to her at the end of it and feel loved. For me, home with Jen means a place I can come back to. My favorite show growing up was "Cheers". It was about a bar where "everyone knows your name." I feel that way with Jen. That she knows my name and is happy that I'm around. It's a really nice feeling to be able to come home to that.

So I'm sorry Jen, for not always talking about you like I should, or thinking about you in ways that you deserve. I want you to have a bigger place in my life. I'm really happy you're in it.

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