How have the decisions I've made in the past affected who I am and what will happen in the future? By decisions I mean mistakes and also just choices I've made where I was making an honest attempt at doing the right thing. Did I mess things up?
As a christian, I am told not to worry. God is in control. He can fix things and forgive blah blah blah. But I am given free will and I have made some choices with that blessed gift that has changed my life and the lives of others, dramatically, for perhaps the next 50 years.
Am I to believe that there are alternative paths for my life that as I bungle things up, a new path is created?
I feel more in control than I want to be. I know some people struggle with control issues but not me. I don't want anything to do with it but the fact remains that I have controlled some things.
And the scary and tragic part about it all is that I don't know what the hell I'm doing. I'm all out of control.
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Hmm...should the title of this be "In denial about control issues?" :o)
Out of controll? Who? The first thing I thought of when I read your "Lady in the Water" review/thoughts/whatnot was how much I see Jesus in what George does. Then I wondered, "Is George leading a kinship yet? I'm going to have to talk to Brad." (Not that that would neccessitate any response from him other than 'who are you? oh, yeah. thanks for your opinion.')
You totally glow in the dark dude. I think there are some good decicions behind that.
Remember: "A righteous man may fall seven times, but each time he rises again." (the Bible)
As that one very spiritual person said: 'keep on truckin.'
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